Reiki: The Mountain & Absurdity
Three weeks ago my life felt unbalanced. Sleep has become work for me, but this isn't a surprise because usually when I seek emotional growth insomnia emerges. So I decided to turn to my Reiki cards for direction. Usually I play with Reiki in a pretty loose manner, but after three weeks of pulling the same card three times, I'm sensing a powerful gift happening.
The card I keep pulling is called "The Mountain: Spiritual Attainment." It always comes up in the reverse with a focus on "Absurdity," which implies that I am nearing a transformation and rebirth. There is a promise of something new to come. In archetypal Reiki, the mountain symbolizes a passage to a state of consciousness more connected to the Divine.
I should feel excited. I mean I'm usually driven by this idea of something wonderful and new, but today when I pulled the card I sensed resistance. I want the card, but lately "The Mountain" is beginning to feel like a job interview that I just can't gauge the outcome. In this brief moment of recognizing reluctance, I began to hear a long list of negative thinking in the back of my head.
Do you ever feel stuck in this in between place? A place where you don't know what is coming, but you get to make the choice of excitement over dread and you choose the latter?
The gratitude for me is in this small moment of recognizing that I have been disconnected from my fear and taking the time to offer myself some thoughtful compassion. Sometimes our own selves are last on the list for receiving kindness and empathy, but when you finally nurture yourself something blossoms and expands tenfold.
Right now I am hoping you too are taking a moment to offer yourself some love and support as we move through autumn -- a momentous season of change...