|hand knitted socks, Beth Hemmila|
Sometimes you have to rip something totally apart in order to finish it.
I started these socks probably five years ago and everything was running smoothly until I got halfway through the second one and started getting distracted. I kept putting it down for long periods of time, and then when I picked it back up again I couldn't find the correct place in the pattern. I had gotten severely lost and was so stubborn that I wouldn't rip the second sock out to start over even though I knew that it was the best solution.
This stand off between me and the second sock became a test of my determination to find where I was in the pattern -- to fix it instead of starting over. I look back now at the ridiculousness of the situation for I literally spent five years with an unfinished pair of socks staring me in the face when I could have ripped it out and finished it in no time.
Sometime in April of this year my show down ended, and I ripped out the second sock and started over. In less then a month I had finished my second sock -- well, five years and one month later :)
Stubbornness is an interesting teaching to see in oneself. I don't know why I wouldn't rip that sock apart. I knew it was the right thing to do, but I just couldn't bring myself to make it happen. So I'd procrastinate and distract myself with other things. I suppose in the broken pattern of my sock there were little tidbits of my life woven in that I didn't quite want to let go of yet and unraveling it meant saying goodbye.
Sometimes it hurts to start over, but when you're ready to begin again many times you create little miracles.
These knitted socks are based on the "Canal Du Midi" pattern found in Knitting on the Road: Sock Patterns for the Traveling Knitter by Nancy Bush. The hand dyed yarn I used was Lorna's Laces.