9.15.2012

Loving, Serving, and Letting Go

Hugo 1996 - 2012

There are only two ways to live your life. 
One is as though nothing is a miracle. 
The other is as though everything is a miracle.
- Albert Einstein


I lived beside and served an emissary of the Beloved for 16 years.

Anyone who spent time with Hugo couldn't refuse him. He wore you down with constant devotion and forgiveness.

He had a direct line to my soul, and knew what I needed even before I thought it. Anyone close to the two of us, saw that he represented the deepest longings of my heart living on the outside. He approached life in a way I've only imagined, but never dared.

A mixture of savant and guru he blessed me with his warmth, humility, and wisdom every day. Teachings I have barely unraveled but know they are mending me in untold ways.

I want to say I loved him without limitations, but I know I only scratched the surface of how much I could have offered. Perhaps that was his last teaching: To dig in and love others deeper then anything potentially measurable.

Being connected to him by a thread of love has changed me forever.

Thank you, Hugo, for your many gifts that I continue to receive and the miracles you created in my life.

20 comments:

  1. Beth, all I can say is that I know exactly how you are feeling...Isn't it amazing how our furbabies can change us?, make us rethink things, also make us look at ourselves differently? Even tho I've never met your kitty, I am holding back tears, I dread to read when someone has lost a pet... Pets are so loyal and unconditional!. ((HUGS))

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    1. Thank you! Your words and connection mean a lot to me :) Like you said, the change they offer us is such an amazing gift xoxo

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  2. it is truly amazing what our furry family can teach us... and how lucky we really are to have them in our lives... approaching it often as 'i think i'll get a cat (or dog, or whatever species)' only to find we are the ones who have been got...
    we spend the next decade or so spending our days and nights with them... very intimately often - as you said, they seem to know what we need and come always with an open heart...
    i am so very glad that you spent much of your growing up with hugo - he was lucky to have such an astute student...

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    1. Thank you so much Mary Jane! I love this feeling that you said we were "got" :)

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  3. You have my deepest sympathy for the passing of your beautiful friend. I wish him safe journey in his passage across the rainbow bridge

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    1. Thanks so much for your kind words and wishes for his safe transition to the next destination :)

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  4. So sorry for your loss Beth. Hugo is a beautiful creature! So handsome!

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    1. Thanks you so much for your words of comfort :)

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  5. What a wonderful tribute to your furbaby...I am so sorry to hear of his passing...sending you cat paw hugs...

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    1. It was so sweet of you to say t his, Thank you Stacie :)

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  6. Beth,

    What a sad day. I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I have four cats myself and I know that it can be as difficult as when a human loved one passes. Hugo is so handsome and nice. Hold tight to your loving memories of your loving boy.

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    1. Thank you so much for your understanding and warmth; it means so much to me :)

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  7. I know that our furry companions love us unconditionally - there are no strings attached. If we would just pay attention, maybe we could learn to love and connect in the same way. My heart bleeds for your loss, knowing just how it feels. But also, I am glad you were able to spend 16 years with Hugo. He will continue to watch out for you from the other side of the bridge, I am sure.

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    1. This is always such a beautiful image of the bridge that links us...thank you for sharing it with me again :)

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  8. Beth,

    Your blog is on a long list of blocs that I try to read when I have a chafe to get on the Internet. You could say I am one of the anonymous, faceless people who you inspire but who doesn't tend to comment. This year I have lost two children who Mela. One a year older than Hugo and one a year younger. They found me as babies and forever changed my life. It has been six and two months since they journeyed forward from this realm of life and their absence is felt in many ways. But just as they loved me with an all consuming heart that truly was complete and undeniable. I know that they also felt loved and knew they were equally the center of my world.

    Those of us who have been privilaged to be loved by a furchild know just how blessed we are. Hugo looks to have been one handsome fellow. Oh those eyes! I have no doubt that he was completely head over heels with delight to have called you his human. Just as I believe my girls will find me again one day, I bet your gent shall find you.

    Try to smile through the pain. Our kitties never enjoyed seeing us sad. Hugs.

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    1. Oh my gosh, this would be so incredibly difficult to lose two in one year! My heart goes out to you. What an amazing gift you were given to have them in your life and to let them change you. Thank you so much for reaching out and connecting over my loss of Hugo. It helps me so much to know I'm not alone in the process of loving and letting go of my fur-guru :) Blessings to you!

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  9. What a touching tribute. You were both lucky to have each other. Those who have never loved an animal don't understand how we feel about them and how they enrich our lives. A friend lost her 20-year companion this week. I'm sure that she can understand your loss.

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    1. Thanks Cynthia! And I'm sending warm thoughts to your friend. 20 years is so long.

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  10. Oh...I am so very sorry for the loss of your kindred animal spirit Beth. Hugo definetely had an old kitty soul, and I believe he chose you because of your enlightened being and graced you with all his love and lessons he had to give. I lost my kindred animal kitty 2 years ago..Simba. I still miss him dearly and am grateful to have had him in my life. I like to think he will be there when I cross over and I will see him again and be able to cuddle like we used to:)

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    1. Thanks so much for your lovely note, Carol! Simba sounds like he was the most beautiful soul connection and I appreciate you letting me know how much you understand my own loss :)

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